Thursday 21 February 2013

Mind Tricks

In this piece, I try to capture ways we knock ourselves dead in our minds before we even begin. We all share these fears and imagine the worst of situations we are about to be faced with, be it social gatherings, interviews, speeches, relationships, etc. We plan and play out our doom in our heads. What's amazing though, is most times, these fears never materialize and we end up surprising ourselves positively. The saddest part is when we let these conjured up demons keep us from taking that one crucial step forward. Enjoy.

20th Feb '13 3:05am    Img: migraineartwork.com



I boo myself, I trip and fall
I bite my tongue, I can't stand tall
With game faces on, they all walk out
Then give my speech, an ovation bout.

Promised one to one, now two to one
Table for two now its for one
A shouting match, a bash, a smash
Then step in to see, oh perfect match.

I ramble on, questioners gone
Research, rehearse to then blab on
Ignorant, unenlightened, I know I seem
Then mailbox pings, acceptance in.

I stand and stare, my glass in hand
Unwanted, unaccepted, not in their band
Return an awkward smile, not sent my way
Then 5 years on, pals made still stay.

I slash my veins and kick my head
And lay down nails to prick me dead
Then get down to doing only to find
Alas, the demons were all in my mind.

21 comments:

  1. Very deep I must say. I had to read it 2wice. Words to ponder on all over again.

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    1. I guess when I do write, I am perfectly aware of all the emotions I want to channel so it makes perfect sense to me. Realizing that the writer is NOT the reader though is something I may have to work on.

      Hope you finally made sense of it though? If any part is unclear, lemme know. I'll share with you what I was thinking in the particular verse. Thanks love!

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  2. ok,lemme start by saying the first thing that crosed my mind on seeing this post - "what took her soooo loooonng"??? Your blog is one place i itch to read. (pls dont starve us this much again unless......)*smiles

    i think i'll second verde by saying "very deep" really. (but then, ddnt expect less anyway) chao!

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    1. Hehehehe. Its like some nights, there is a spirit that comes upon me that makes me write like a mad person. From 1-4 am, I wrote like 3 pieces and decided that its just this one I'm comfortable with sharing.

      So, yeah I'm always writing but can't share most of what I write. I'll work on writing more shareable posts speedily! Lets hope that spirit hits again soon. loool. Thanks Dupe.

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    2. i release the spiritssssss upon you!!! *laffs

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  3. girl you blow my mind. This is really deep

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    1. lol. I do hope you kinda understood it though. Thanks so much dearie. And I hope to take you up on your offer very soon. hehehe

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  4. Yikes.. I got caught up feeding your fish... lol... Very deep.. in fact you just reminded me of something I wanted to add to the devotional I'm going to send out tomorrow: the ones we hurt the most is ourselves..I hurt ME the most, sometimes I need to forgive me.

    dolu

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    1. Haha! Many thanks,they should be the fattest fish ever by now, dunno whats wrong with them! lol

      Very true, we hurt ourselves the most and it begins with how we think.I'm glad you like it and I look forward to reading tomorrow's devotional! Muah!

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  5. Oh my,dido..you have such an awesome mind..just like verde I had to read it twice..very abstract,I certainly enjoy trying to decipher everything,I find that it stretches my mind.dido I can't hide my jealousy..the way you manipulate words to do your bidding,simply amazing..please stop starving us jor(˘̯˘ ).in this very rather regular world,we need all the depth we can find.

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    1. lol. You are far too kind with your compliments! Thanks a lot Jaeda. Just like you, I do like trying to understand the thought processes that go into certain pieces of poems, writings, music, artwork. Thanks dearie, for always coming back, more to come soon.

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  6. Unlike Verde and others.... I kept coming back to read this... Its very deep and there are a lot of hidden truths.... I find the last part very fascinating, it has a sad-happy ending... Another great piece from u... Welcome back... I hope u keep on writing

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    1. Thank you very much, my pseudo editor:-)I'm happy you're able to relate with the piece.

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  7. Pretty amazing Lannie. Short and enlightening.
    And oh, sometimes I think our fears, even though they do not materialize in the end and we surprise ourselves, may drive us to being what we want to. In order words, our fears push us to not fall victim of our fears (if that made any sense, lol)
    This your 5 month breaks sha :)

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    1. What can I say? A gal's gotta vay-cay! hehe. And yeah, I see the method to that madness. Makes perfect sense to me!

      Thanks for dropping by Yinky! You're a doll!:-*

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  8. Doyinsolami...hmmm... This is deep! I had to read and re-read; well this has made up for ur 2 or 3months absence... Beautiful! Do share more.

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    1. Thanks Iyun darl! Happy you like it. Hehehe. I look forward to sharing more!

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  9. NICE ONE.... VERY DEEP. PLEASE WE NEED MORE MORE OFTEN, TAKIA BOO.....

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